Moving on up


As of tomorrow, I start a new venture. As I mentioned a while back, I love what I do but freelancing is difficult. Regardless of how good I am, how much I do... there's always more. There's always work that needs to be done after 5pm. There's always more I could be doing on one of my many ongoing projects. There's always a reason to work... but you know what's not been a reason? Money. Working this hard, for this long, to grow a business that I love has been amazing... but its been tough. My child has known want because of what I do for a living... that's not to say it hasn't been profitable, but its feast or famine. There are some months that we've relied on savings, or family, or the generosity of our friends. It has caused so much undue stress for everyone involved... so I really honestly took a look at what I do, what I love, and I started following it.

That's taken me to the place I am now, hurriedly buying work clothes and finishing projects with my existing clients as quickly as possible... I start tomorrow. I am scared out of my mind. I'm not scared I can't do it, that I'm not good enough... I am. I am entering this with full confidence that this is the best move I've ever made. I will knock their socks off, completely. I'm scared that this will truly open so very many doors. This will allow me to live comfortably for the first time since I've been an adult. It will improve so many aspects of my life. That means progress... personal fulfillment on a number of levels... big steps, and bigger changes. I'm just scared because its all so perfect. Its everything I never knew I always wanted.

Thank you to everyone who has supported me through the years. You've all made this possible and I appreciate you. I'm not going anywhere... Promise.

<3
H

19 comments:

May 22, 2010 at 11:48 AM Melissa said...

Congrats Heather! I hope you love your new job!

May 22, 2010 at 9:49 PM craftattacks said...

Congratulations, mama!! Best of luck at your new job!

May 24, 2010 at 8:13 AM Desiree Fawn said...

Congrats! I hope everything going swimmingly!

May 26, 2010 at 6:58 PM Laurie Marshall said...

So great! I'm excited for you - new experiences are so awesome, even when there's a healthy dose of freak-out associatd. Can you tell us where you'll be?

June 7, 2010 at 11:45 AM D415_evonN_Risinger0 said...

我真心在追求我的夢想時,每一天都是繽紛的。因為我知道每一個小時都是實現理想 的一部份。 ....................................................

June 14, 2010 at 11:24 AM SadeRa盈君iford0412 said...

被人揭下面具是一種失敗,自己揭下面具卻是種勝利。............................................................

June 18, 2010 at 1:56 AM 許美玉 said...

人生的光榮,不在永不失敗,而在於能夠屢仆屢起。......................................................................

June 26, 2010 at 9:42 PM 茹順茹順 said...

人不能像動物一樣活著,而應該追求知識和美德.................................................................

June 30, 2010 at 4:08 AM 江婷 said...

生存乃是不斷地在內心與靈魂交戰;寫作是坐著審判自己。......................................................................

July 10, 2010 at 2:23 AM 王雅筑 said...

當一個人內心能容納兩樣相互衝突的東西,這個人便開始變得有價值了。............................................................

July 14, 2010 at 3:48 PM 婷珊 said...

一時的錯誤不算什麼,錯而不改才是一生中永遠且最大的錯誤............................................................