Saturday, May 22, 2010
As of tomorrow, I start a new venture. As I mentioned a while back, I love what I do but freelancing is difficult. Regardless of how good I am, how much I do... there's always more. There's always work that needs to be done after 5pm. There's always more I could be doing on one of my many ongoing projects. There's always a reason to work... but you know what's not been a reason? Money. Working this hard, for this long, to grow a business that I love has been amazing... but its been tough. My child has known want because of what I do for a living... that's not to say it hasn't been profitable, but its feast or famine. There are some months that we've relied on savings, or family, or the generosity of our friends. It has caused so much undue stress for everyone involved... so I really honestly took a look at what I do, what I love, and I started following it.
That's taken me to the place I am now, hurriedly buying work clothes and finishing projects with my existing clients as quickly as possible... I start tomorrow. I am scared out of my mind. I'm not scared I can't do it, that I'm not good enough... I am. I am entering this with full confidence that this is the best move I've ever made. I will knock their socks off, completely. I'm scared that this will truly open so very many doors. This will allow me to live comfortably for the first time since I've been an adult. It will improve so many aspects of my life. That means progress... personal fulfillment on a number of levels... big steps, and bigger changes. I'm just scared because its all so perfect. Its everything I never knew I always wanted.
Thank you to everyone who has supported me through the years. You've all made this possible and I appreciate you. I'm not going anywhere... Promise.